i never know whats going to happen in my life. i screw relationships up. i dont seem to stay in one place or keep a thought straight. i learn to live with it. still learning what to do next, and waht to expect out of people. i can soo much but i just choose not to. cant seem to be happy with just what i have. always one more guy or one minute.
cant exactly spell out what im trying to say but
sometimes i should stay put. be quiet. not say anything, and let it go. im not the type of girl who would just hook up with someone when i like them. i dont go around kissing other guys. im more of an untamed girl who just cant seem to be happy setling for something that just isnt me. i dont drink. i dont do drugs. i dont hook up. im the high school free spirited freshmen, who isnt looking for anyone anymore. i have my friends and thats basically all i need. i hurt them, i know i do, but once i relize that i was wrong, i will come back. i havent been myself for the past coulpel of weeks. ive been off. and im sorry. i have been tempermental and cant really control myself. im human. i make mistakes. i pass up offers everyone else would take. its difficult to understand, but i dont want to to be IN love. i love many of my friends, but not yet IN LOVE with someone. high school changes you. you can drink to impress. be a druggie to fit in. have sex to be cool. thats highschool.
its not me. im waiting for someone, who dosent really care if their cool or not. im waiting for someone who can handle me. im not logical. i dont think about things. i was raised to know waht is right and wrong period. nothign inbetween. i might do something stupid, but it will always have an explination.
as people say “there will always be happy endings, if your not happy, its not the end.” were just going to have to wait for something good(:
